positive vibration

Time crunched as a concept in his overheated brain,the accordian of loosely connected axel's incessant unsyncopated thought was far from 'here'.Going through the trauma repeatedly if necessary.That was the itch he loved not being able to scratch.Kurjeef was right,going through whatever hung you up in conjunction with intense awareness of the totality of experience was the cure to empowerment of  the pre-verbal human experience.That is, the things that happened to us before we could understand or explain in english.Not that cure meant arrival or even improvement.Nasty bussiness wanting to improve yourself in my experience.Let me just Say BUYER'S BEWARE whenever they start talking about what you don't have and need to pay another child of the universe to get.They create a problem which one falls in to then put themeselves up as the answer.BEWARE   

Is realy good.So much fluid stuff at this moment its hard  to believe I am working on leaving emminently.This process requires calm repose.Thank you to the readers and those who left kind words of encouradgement.I hope to get on more soon. peace     are u

ah,plenty of breathing room.Just in time too because those special autonomous occurences that add up at times in life seemingly nascent but containing within each seed ,well rehearsed obstruction.It seems its all for the better when weighed against more realistic ideas of what is "vital" in making a complete human.I'm mostly excited about buying an electric guitar which makes the mini studio come alive with effect.Its still a fair learning curve but it fits with some goals i have in mind.Regarding the mind..................its been a waking samnambulists' skull fuck to go through heavy transition during this time.Surely a good time to focus on work or projects.Its good to have seen this before................things so very wrong something has to be right!I'll get out of here a bloody mess if thats required.Self recrimination is a nasty creepy liar too so lately life is a series of balancing acts on successive tight ropes I fall on and off of.Love of humanity helps me appreciate the beauty and loving utility of compassion, humbleness and contentedness.

Comet world is an odd visual experience in its lack thereof.It seems to me A 'New Post'  command should be easier to find.Notoriously goooey in my ways I'll take most raps on my esthetic complaints cuz I know that to be gooey is to be somewhat oozy.A little slow.I may not be or have done the things they say but I have to confess to being occasionally spewy.                     I've been looking at architecture at mid day in the city and comparing it with darkenining hillsides where deconstructed large geometric monotone shapes emerge.All the city angles seem jaggedly arbitrary in memorializing the many times and places  that wealth was amassed to build with fresh optimism.The architecture changes with each economic boom the city grew in to.It must be very lucky to still see and enjoy fresh angles on  the streets one frequents every day.Seeing the world as a composition is kind of odd as opposed to even but one wonders if that sort of simulacra does not come with all the various arts and sciences.Dancers see choreography in the mundane world,and painters see movement of light and through color and its arrangement.Writing could be the use of the angles and shapes of ideas on a large and small scale.Enough of that!!!!   What difference does it make if you paint your books,play your paintings and write your playing? I am wondering about this because if I am satisfied expressing myself that includes cooking and growing vegetables if I believe any of the so called arts work equally.I wonder how much difference there is in self expression when someone re-arranges thier furniture twice a year for fun or paints a painting.I guess I'm with the life is art movie!            This makes me mad..............hmmmff..... beeing up now why am i not on the dance floor?I just about posted now to see if I am still......

Bit comet bloggers are very kind and responsive in a fairly egalitarian way.No one is ignored but one is challenged to get more involved.My previous post was an apology to myself and for anyone interested regarding the time and effort(or lack of)on my part when not on a more dynamic blog as exists at bit comet.I hope to laod it with my music and art etc but every day brings new suprises that prevent me from taking the time.It is rather odd that in the united states on line enthusiast are lacking in social graces while those in south america,eastern europe and asia never forget a kind word.I nticed a romanian on here and as my grandfather was from Iash(moldova?) I am keenly interested in visiting there.In university I majored in Russian studies and was on red square on the new years eve before 1984.Too much fun esspecially because I was a strong drinker.We thought there was only two kinds of vodka but when we got to the dollar bills only store we found countless rows of flavored vodka.We decided to drink as many as we could which meant 1 fifth per day.The caviar was 10 dollars for a large sevruga and we used to stay drunk untill three to watch the changing of the guards  at lennin's wax mausaleum.To sum this up,I wonder why some people like those who do not like them nor treat them well over a responsive fairly open group of people here.I was quite touched by the responses I recieved on bcomet and would like to pledge heartfelt thoughts of good will whatever that means.Often it is said that pure secular humanism is anti "other worldly" but I differ.One can be what most people are.......6th rate pragmatists and anti material in their materialism,or one can embrace the vast unkown in the here and now,enjoying the fruits of kind seeds planted down the road.I SOUND LIKE A BLOW HARD and I would appreciate not being that way.I know nothing.My 26 year old friends boss me around because I try and take everyone as a teacher.Man but what stupid crap I put on line......

That was very kind and very clear.I would say brave but it seems to me you know by fact that you may trust your heart in all directions.I wish I could honestly tell you the same.Fact is I have learned how to accept and become open to "quote unquote" accept the kindness and cre that others feel for me.It was so prideful to reject so much love.At that time I could not say "I love myself" in an honest way.I alwayse wondered why it is harder to accept than give love in general.I figured a good answer luckily!!!!!!!!People have often reminded me of a bucket of ocean crabs who pull there friends back in to the bucket.MISERY TRUELY LOVES COMPANY WHENEVER i WAS WEAK AND ASKING ADVICE.That was a long time ago but the best advice was when I used to work with septegenerians and one started spitting at me as he made me promise not to mary untilI was passed the 40zzz.Many men who were older than I all married and also tell me to avoid it.Fact nof the matter it is best and healthiest  considered by(?)  so called experts as the norm for people to marry wrong the first time and get it right the secong.Also, because we no longer have easy access for children to any extended family as in older ages  it is normal for some to be serial heterosexual monogomous in 7 year cycles.I am not sure if it is natural in this day and age to commit oneself to a lifetime or if people are missing the best part, which takes years with the same person to be sure its the mind flaying thought that people have the capacity to stay in love for 50 years(including physical).Most woman and men who stay together have work that keeps them apart a little bitsometimes and often in fact by a twist of fate the relationship was originaly a friendship based on mirthful, passionate humor.Thank you and I confess ,i normaly do not enjoy it when I have exposed so much music I love.Although few awaken to it, choice of song sez a lot about people.In the words of candi stanton "i'm a victim......

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                           I AGREE VERY MUCH     THANKS FOR SOME FINE BRILLIANT WRITING TO IMMORTAL TECHNIQUE  .I know this song AND MUSIC ARE not for everyone.I like the r and b loop and organ finding it FRESH.This last verse,above,is an admirable statement of some things I hold dear.Suffice to say he understands what it means to promote non-harming in his day to day life.I would just post this forever but what muck would that make for the lottus flower to bloom so gracefully harmonious,out of in time,movement, and space.check this song out if you have any liking for hip hop.Otherwise,enjoy what you would like.this is just a suggestion.Please check the artist out on line    immortal technique

Ah, getting cold and wet and knowing it will be a shodow memory for several months.I wonder if other people think about how the days get shorter on June 21 signifying the end of summer in some regard.When friends sing the blues before Christmass I remind them that  December 21st is the real first day of summer for, the sunlight,however difuse it seems,illuminates increasingly through  the misleeding cold on the day the music died. I Noticed some bit of discontentedness and dis-ease among the general reaction of all straata of people in the New York city I passed and/or noticed.Its these many days of low pressure ,dark sky and rain.OHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOOOOOOOOOBut i will confess  If one ever finds onself truely in love with another person non of that applies.All is poetry then.       ............................and I don't mean at the start of a fling but the real thing,managed(creepy ass word)as best one can through the normal ways of staying in love much longer and appreciating time appart.Many marriages that go a bit or more than the average;Often,work takes one partner away for 1/2 the week.I don't think that these couples ever forget that incredible feeling of studied fammilliarity through the senses of a long term partner(longer term?)lying next to you in bed, which leeds to peace and contentment for the most part.Generalities are dumb uesually and deffinetly regarding this subject.I stick to my story regarding longevity but there are caviattes in a serious way.Some peole are so affraid of intimacy they deliberatly wreck that which their psychology won't allow them to have.In these situations the individual does not understand that it is easier to be a loving person than it is to accept love.Love comes from UNEXPECTED PLACEs. We Humans fear the unknown.We may feel we do not deserve the love or that we do not think the person knows you in order to love them and hence bristle at their genuine kindness.We......