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After she left my house feeling better about the break up she had with her boyfriend  well  I mean exboyfriend now.  She gave me a long hug and said good bye and went to her car.  It was raining out side and I watched her from the window.  Before she went in the car she stopped and looked up into the sky and let the rain fall down on her face.   Every thing seemed it froze in time I could see clearly the rain drops fall slowly on her sweet lips the rain fallen on her soft neck wishing I could touch her  like the rain is touching her.  She touches her lips to feel the rain I could tell she was not all right yet but in time her pain will past.   And finally I will tell her how I feel  about her I hope it is raining out side when I tell her.

The Girl I have feelings for calls me up really upset.  I go over to her house she is having a huge fight with her boyfriend.  When I arrive she wraps her arms around me and hugs me for a least 2 minutes.  I am being selfish right now I hold her just as tight but I dont whant to let her go.  We sat on the couch facing each other and she is telling me whats wrong.  I want to tell her to leave this guy and give me a chance but I just listen to her.  I try to focus on her voice but my eyes were looking at her soft lips and her eyes  dam they  are so fine.  We talk some more then she cuddled into me.  I was behind her holding her tight.  I know I must be there for her in her time of sadness.  But my heart was pounding fast I know she could feel it.  My warm breath was on her neck  I wanted soooo bad to kiss it.   Man she smelled so good.  So I  came to my senses  and tried to convince her to call her boyfriend and talk to him.    She turns around and says she just wants me to hold her and not say a word anymore about her boyfriend.  I held her in my arms all night and not say another word.   I my  heart was  in so much pain  sounds  cheeezzzy  but  hey its  the truth.    I still did not tell her how I feel