Chapter I
My personal toughts for today.
It`s so grey outside. Cold, windy, dark.
The best of 2008 autumn, aye ?
Looking at many diffrent cases, I begin to wonder. Wonder why, and where, how and who, and most important one, when.
No time to talk, no time to walk, no time to sleep, no time to drink. Out of time to live.
That`s exactly what happens when you start to die as a living person. A slow process of your personal desintegration. Rotting while being alive. A paradox ? Possible. But sometimes even the most impossible paradox becomes possible.
Soon it`ll become a chronicle of my mind, becoming sick and polluted. Maybe, but who should care. Will you ? I won`t. You neither.
By reading whole that almost-emo stuff you do read now, you agree to my terms and conditions, whether you know them, or not. Lack of knowledge about the law is not an excuse for not abiding by it.
I`m really sick of that stuff like "hey, cheer up, life is beatiful" and some other kinky lies. okey, let`s be honest now, life isn`t beatiful. It`s probably uglier then everything else. "Little things make life beatiful" ? No, they don`t. If you think so, I can only feel sorry for you. "Smile, rainbow comes even after rain" ? Sure, especially on sahara, right ? Yep, once per 50 years. Okey, that`s cool.
Actually, it`s not that I want to change your look on the sorroundings, it`s just expressing my point of view.
Staring into my cup of coffee on the table, I wonder how many people are gathering the coffee seeds. Let`s say, 50. How many of them are happy of that ? Somewhere in south america, dreams exist also. Impossible, right ? I can bet my right hand, that at least 30 of those guys/girls would switch their job to something more you know, respected. Being a banker, doctor. director. But none of them will suceed. Why ? because life ain`t fair. They know it deep in they own heart, but they won`t even tell you about their desires,as it would be silly for the rest of society. "Hoho, Joshua, you becoming a director ? No clue from where you get your drugs, but gimme a contact number".
Hehehe.
Funny ? Not.
But let`s look on everything from a bit wider perspective.
Let`s say, Etiopia, a third world country. Long time ago, supreme country of the region. Yea, they were ruling there. hard to believe, isn`t it ? Anwyay, let`s get back to the topic. Try to ask yourself, how many of those guys, would rather prefer to be supplying US into genetically modified corn, instead of being supplied. Sending their own teachers to foreign countries and building schools, instead of being country without single school build by it`s own inhabitants. Looking at other countries with that superior look, saying "We`re better then you", rather then looking everywhere for help with humilation drawn on face. Try to tell them, that life will become better one day. Don`t forget, to tell me their reaction.
Chapter II
Little perspectives for future.
Well, Kladdey will probably be writing a book. or something like a book. Or well, something not like a book at all. Okey, that`ll be some pages of complaining, some of optimsitic look into the future, some one my own epic fails, and some on epic fails of other people. Hope you`ll look forward into it.
PS. And I`m so surprised with the "reads" statistic. It`s really nice to see, that so many of you have been interested by my complaining upon everything. Stay tuned for more !
Always yours,
Kladdey !
Chiasm - Isolated
Isolated
Alone and apart
Isolated
Isolated
I'll never crawl again
I'll never fall again until i'm free
Here i stand in this room
Caged and trapped inside
Seems i'm damned to live a lie
Unaware of what's outside
Should i care for what's left me behind
And i stare at light that makes me blind
Internally there's nothing left for me to be
I'm here alone and isolated
Have no choice but be isolated
Struggling
Left alone
Apart
Pushed aside
Made segregated
Struggling
Left alone
Apart
See i have no choice but be isolated
Threatened
Forced to extract the heart
Pushed aside
Made segregated
Have no choice but be...
The monsters make me hide
Perhaps i'll eat myself alive
Internally there's nothing left for me to be
I can't care for what's left me behind
And stare at light that makes me blind
These broken walls trap me inside
I'm isolated
Have no choice but be isolated
Struggling
Left alone
Apart
Pushed aside
Made segregated
Struggling
Left alone
Apart
See i have no choice but be isolated
Threatened
Forced to extract the heart
Pushed aside
Made segregated
Have no choice but be...
I'll never crawl again
I'll never fall again until i'm free
I'll never crawl again
I'll never fall again until i'm free
And i stare at light that makes me blind
Internally there's nothing left for me to be
I'm here alone and isolated
Have no choice but be isolated
Struggling
Left alone
Apart
Pushed aside
Made segregated
Struggling
Left alone
Apart
See i have no choice but be isolated
Threatened
Forced to extract the heart
Pushed aside
Made segregated
Struggling
Left alone
Apart...
I'll never crawl again
I'll never fall again until i'm free...
