TheLeonardo's BLOG

This is about the "woman of my dreams" that I agreed to wait two years for....Following the death of my father, and the impending death of my mother, I had something to give me solice...something to hold on to....to look forward to, the week visit of my one and only. I hired two old polish housekeepers....they turned out to be the housekeepers from hell. Their language, filthy and foul, their actions angry and abusive, threw away things they thought were garbage. One couldn't operate my kirby vacuum so she was going to throw it out. I grabbed it and did the vacuuming. 80.00 was given to wash clothes....they were washed but folded wet. Damage to my ps3, a unworkable toaster, unworking lighting ball, anything I owned "somewhere else", that was the start before she came. She arrived and seemed aloof......very odd since we couldn't wait to meet. Then the story. She is not going to leave where she is! She came to finish us. Yes the deep love is alive but it isn't enough. After two depressing days an understanding was made. This didn't fare well with me but it was the best I could get. She will be my love for the visit (not really, some here, some there) we are to continue emails; until I meet someone else and become physically involved...that will break the chain and our "specialness will stop".  She is going to stay in her loveless relationship. Why is so confusing because just a few days ago she told him she wanted to leave. It is so depressing. I have nothing to look forward to or hold on to now. Guess I have to "get a life". Being a romantic is so hard because it's a vulnurable position. If the one you love decided to make a "rash" move unexpectedly, the lover just must accept the decision no matter that it doesn't make sense and no one will be happy. Sucks to be me.......................a broken Leonardo  (oh yea the cleaning cost400.00, her husband fixed my plumbing..........then that was followed by three floods while she was here. So much more crap  in a short period.