Aeon Black Apocalypse

Blacked out on the bathroom floor this morning. Nearly cracked my head on the edge of the bathtub as I collapsed to my knee's. Forced myself into ice cold water and nearly went into shock. Slowly got used to it and cooled my body down. I'm shivering still but I still feel like i'm boiling inside. The drugs are NOT strong enough. Fever is sustaining but not reducing. Personal note: i've never gotten chicken pox, and this is apparently how it starts. Fingers crossed that i'm not crossing that bridge, not now. I think about her nursing me back to health and it keeps me sane, and it's like i'm nursing the thought of her nursing me all the while i'm nursing myself. Phantom care. I dont even have a clue what tommorow morning is going to bring.