zord's BLOG

Haiz.. So I'm left typing another blog on here.. Lol... Hmm... Maybe i should update my other blog as well.. Anyway.. Here am I sitting in front of the computer, bemusing whether I should do my mechanical engineering in UniTeN or just do my A-levels in Singapore if I didn't get either JPA or UTP scholarship.. Its so confusing to decide what to do in my life.. Well I guess its all the education and the parents fault.. Not that i intentionally want to point to somebody or put the blame on someone else, its just that since i was raised I am just pushed to excel in my studies.. I need to get all As in my subjects.. Both the education system and my parents insist on that for 10 years..  Its until I have finished my high school general exam that I realised the mistake I was doing all my life.. Spending my time on my studies and did not excel in anything other else than examination.. Guess its my fault for not opening my eyes earlier.. Anyway, there I go again, blabbering on my problems.. I know i need to change myself.. And now I have to decide my future and at the same time change myself if i do not wish burden anyone again.. Haiz.. Sometimes i just wan to escape from all this.. But yet the same problems will come back to haunt me all the way again... Lol.. Life indeed is tough.. Just that its how prepared yourself are when you step out in life and make your own decision for your life.. K.. Thats all for now.. I need to do all my routine and at the same time think what is the best way for me right now..