Not a lot of people know this. Probably just a handfull. I am clinically depressed. I'm currently taking anti-depressants to treat this condition that I have.
I am kinda embarrassed with my current situation. You are automatically considered a "loony" the moment people learn that you see a shrink in this country.
One is not allowed to mix anti-depressants and alcohol. They say it could be fatal. So, when I go clubbin' or to parties etc. and people ask me why I don't have a bottle of beer or a martini glass in hand, I just say whatever comes to mind first. The usual answer that pops up is that i'm taking antibiotics that's why i can't have any alcohol. But of course that answer only saves me for a week or up to ten days haha. After a month, and the same person asks me why i'm havin' iced tea and i still say antibiotics he's gonna think that my body serves as a hotel to bacteria and the like.
So this is the 3rd time that i've been diagnosed with depression. Honestly, i think what triggered it was my most recent break up. Yeah i know it's normal for a person to be depressed after a break up. That's what i thought too. So i waited it out. But even after being over my ex i still had the same feeling of not wanting to go on with my life, not wanting to wake up and sometimes even wanting to die. I would just sleep all day and pig out whenever i was awake. I was taking my 2 year old son forgranted. So finally one day i woke up and decided that i needed help.
A few weeks after my medication things were A-OK. It was like I was at the top of the world and there was nothing that I couldn't do. I was livin' and lovin' life. But things changed this month. I assumed that i was kust PMS-ing. I became sluggish, irritable, emotional, which are all signs of an upcoming period. I couldn't wait for it to be that time of the month.
But now it's been a week after that time of the month and i'm still feeling BLAH! I've been sleeping more and more and have become hella irritable. I've lost want for things that I used to enjoy doing. Nothing seems to interest me. I think i'm depressed again but i dunno why the hell i am. I mean there must've been something that triggered it but i can't indentify it as of now. Oh well that's life. See i'm close to puking coz i don't wanna write anymore. So this is it. Aloha-goodbye.
