bladerunner's BLOG

people out there have life bad i know i did when i was just the age of 11 i was forced into the world of drugs,trust me something im not happy about but it happened didnt help when your cousin you know someone you look up to 7 years older than you is a drug dealer lives with you you have to do what they say, are you get hammered like i did from wall to wall and your parents dont believe a word you say, up until i was 13 and tried to walk away but that didnt help, my sister at the time was 2 years younger than me and cause my cousin couldnt shift his gear he raped her just to get me to be a drug runner for him again. i gave into it so my sister didnt get hurt no more as my mum was told by the hospital that her daughter will never be able to have children. Any way as the years went by at the age of 15 i started to get smart and took all his gear and flushed it down the toilet and filled loads of bags with paracetemol and watched him get his head kicked in 2 days later. that cousin all my family looked upto was put up by us when no one else wanted him we gave him the chance of a normal life i couldnt stand there when everyone else did when he did that to my sister he had to pay. hes still going lie but i changed my life around for the best at the age of 16 i started working full time and also became a youth worker, i was still working as a youth worker up untill 3 years ago, you would be very surprised of how many people out there i can relate too.drug use and child abuse needs to stop.I lost my cousin 18 year old cousin a year this january thats gone to the world of drugs but he never thought about his 18 month old son he has left behind.druggies dont think of any one only themselfs and its about time they took the responcability that it has on everyone else as it is the other people the good people in there familes that are left to pick up the pieces.

in loving memory of a beloved cousin and father who died to the world of drugs, may your son grow up to be better than us