thgrlnxtdr's BLOG

Stop blaming other people for not pursuing what you want from your life. There are a million little ways you can be who & what you want in this world- even if you choose to keep your true goals and dreams a secret from the narrow minded and overly concerned. So many people live life as a beautiful and tragic apology for who they fail to be for others. It's become the a gross exaggeration of deconstructing the self into nonexistence- or worse, a hold over from the puritanical strangle hold that still engulfs the mindset of the eastern seaboard. I stir up my own self loathing as I write these words because I too wasted way too much time trying to please people who did not have my best interests, mental or physical health, at heart. I'm not naive, just idealistic- and there ought to be some merit in being an idealist if only for use in finding out who you truly are or are becoming. So many people get caught up in the high school drama and toss what matters most because they don't want to deal with anything that roots them in admitting their not living their ideal life. Change is much easier to make when you know what you want and stop chasing what the world tells you that you SHOULD want. Think for yourself people- it's not illegal- yet. Reality is what you make it.