dejave's BLOG

    I cant imagine myself writing on something I’m not used to...blogging thing is new to me...I don't actually write stuffs like this...one thing that pushed me to do so was my friend "panks" to our term...although she didn't convince me that well...and my used to be "ney" told me that writing should come from the heart...that I’ll just let my fingers do the talking...after reading so many blogs...it came to a point that "y not try?" maybe because I was afraid...afraid of failure...afraid to be criticized...afraid of frustration...afraid of almost everything...that made me think that I cant write despite of so many experiences i've been through...and maybe because I was not confident of myself...that every time I try to do things...it always end up to nothing...i admit i have a low self-esteem...always afraid to do stuffs beyond my knowledge...not brave enough to deal things beyond my control...for what if things may not go as what i wanted it to be? eversince, i was a pessimist...once i tried doing and desiring things and if i fail...i'll never go back to it or never try it again...its not helping me to grow...wish i could have the courage to stand still even if it feels like hell...even if no one wants to believe me...for in every struggles  in life...i know i'll make it through in the end...