potsmo_kerr's BLOG

hi folks hope you are all well, it has been a while since i posted anything but real world problems have a way of affecting my online habits, i was recently diagnosed with serious depression and high anxiety i have been self harming for more than a year and shielding myself from social stuff regular visits to my psychiatrist have helped me cope a little better also the medication, i still feel awfull most days but little steps eh, one thing that seemed to help me get through the day was making compilation videos and posting them on youtube i had a lot of loyal subscribers and even got awards, but then life kicks you in the teeth again some had complained about some of the content and i was suspended and all awards taken away, i would like it to be known that my content although harsh was no worse than other videos on youtube my fatal mistake apparently was presenting them in a entertaining fashion, after my ban was up i returned with a new video only to be promptly banned again this time for good my account was deleted along with over 60 videos which i worked really hard on editing and composing and the like, that pushed me into the doldrums again and said fuck it to everything, now im just getting mysself together again and i want to start making ny videos again obviously youtube is not an option, and i cant seen to find a home for these videos ive tried a couple of video sites like dailymotion, but they just dont compare to youtube and i find myself resenting google more and more after all they own youtube, they have such a good site and i agree with the no porn rule but surley the site would benefit from proper moderation (my video bad) same vid elsewhere on youtube (apparently fine). anyhoo rant over if anyone has any suggestions about where my vids may be liked i would appreciate your help guys.............peace from the  potsmo_kerr